Wednesday, August 19, 2009
First i would love to say that i am fucking glad that i have great friends around me, AND I MEAN REALLY GREAT.

My sec school friends are nothing but rtards that can do nothing to me but laughters on my face.
they are really that awesome.
Some of the NYP mates, that really make my day each time i get to meet them.
Including some of my outside friends.

These peeps really make me have fun, even though im having a bad day or when im having some low self-esteem issues. I think i should say that im lucky.

But then i would also say i wasnt born to be this lucky too, it seems like i just dont have the luck with the people around me eh? today just proved how bad i am at social life, or more specific, love life. Balls of steel? my ass.

Just seems that what way i do, i am unable to get anyone's heart, and i really mean ANYTHING, from nice guy to a total asshole. people might say i did not put enough effort or whatsoever , well i agree, im not like the greatest,sweetest,most romantic or daring person in the world, but i want to put in effort, but i just dun have the fucking guts to do it. god damn it ray, you suck balls. or maybe isit fate??

i dont know what to do, what i want, or what i am anymore
a sign or help please? anyone?
--Hi at 5:57 AM